I picture a big pool filled with playful swimmers. Do I wander about, staying alert to those in the pool in case of emergency, watching those out of the pool for opportunities to chat or help? Maybe I get in the water, but I use the steps, move slowly, so that I can maintain an alert countenance. I know I want to be responsible. But I don’t know how. Where is the best place to be? It is so hard to know, especially when everyone else seems to be diving in head first.
I look about and realize I am the only person outside the pool. How did that happen? I’d assumed there was an understanding between just a few of us that we would abstain from the play so we could be lifeguards, gofers, and ‘accessible.’ But I guess that is what I get for assuming. Am I wrong? Should I dive in, too? Or now MUST I stay out, as the ONLY one left? I don’t know…But, man, it is cold and lonely up here alone.