Last year was a rough one. I got used to knowing that 2011 was a challenge. The problem with thinking that way is that it put a lot of pressure on 2012. And here we are, and I have a bad attitude rooted in my unrealistic expectations. When I was a kid, we used to get spanked for DRAs. Yep, a Dirty Rotten Attitude was enough for physical correction in my household. And I am thankful for it, because our attitudes serve as rudders to our lives and truly deserve that level of attention.
I have sure had a DRA this year, indignant that everything hasn’t righted itself after 2011. My primary frustration is with our finances. I thought losing our house and working on debt would free us up. All was supposed to be well by now. We worked so hard and lost a lot last year. Now is when it was supposed to be paying off. What a DRA! I need to get over it; I need to just deal with it.
So, no more complaining about money from me. My expectations are stripped away, my sense of entitlement is banished. As I consider conversations with friends over the past few months, I am embarrassed and ashamed of all the complaining I have done. What miserable company I am! And it isn’t like anyone else is doing any better than we are. They sure don’t moan about it, though.
Thanks, friends, who have listened with sympathy. I don’t need it anymore, though! I will adopt an attitude of gratitude and deal with where we are with faith that He has always given us more than we have ever needed.